I'M BACK!!

hahaha... i'm back from camping!!! yeah!!! first camping actually not suck at all.. it was good and fair enough... ( i can change my perception on tht) second the activities really fun.. third- we not showed in two days..( can u imagine tht?? how stinky, smelly i am.. )

Day 1- the bus is delayed.. cuz the the bus driver is on stike..( maybe) then we arrived late... we ate late.. ( it makes we wanna be GREEN.. hahahha)tired... activities... bla..bla...bla..

Day 2- morning (dawn).. night-walk..(should i called it night-walk or dawn-walk?? heheheh) it's not scared at all.. cuz we do it in our camp site.... breakfast... war games n explorace... evening-back home..

over all- the activities really... really.. fun.. not boring..
the first thing i amazed that all the commanders are really sporting.. then they smiled.. hhehehee cuz each time in KO-Ku, their attitude make me hate them so much.. just after this maybe i can throw all the bad thing that i think before bout them...

lastly.. this the last i join the camping,.. never after this!!!

~~~the camping~~~

The camping...
YES IT IS!!!!
really... i hate it..
now i talk to my dad!!!
yeah really... talk to him how to survive...
hahahhahaha......
survive of what???
in FOREST LA!!!!
dowh...
is not i didn't the camping....
it just... i hate activity that been held......
espeacially... the NIGHTWALK....
it very hard for me to join it..
just i'm really...really.... scared of dark.... the black dark....
it make me feel panic... unbreathing....
gosh...
mom n dad said...
please take care of yourself.....
always be in group....
don't too exited....
etc...etc...etc...
mom n dad..
i really don't want to go this camping....
i'll take care of myself...( i will collapse if they push to do something that i don't like)
yeah... i always be n group.....
i am really not exited... most... anxiety.....sacred.... dizzy...

hayyyyooooooo......
wish i never follow this or other camp after this.....

after the camp... mylife ... bull*** busy....
full of assignment.. full of examination...
gosh,.... i really busy now... i just don't have to myself...
no time management.....
i really had no time...
if i had...
i'll sleep.... it just sleep that i can do....
and after i wake up.... i feel guilty.. because... the time that i spent in sleep is waste.... better i do my work...
ooohhhh... please ... i need time..

and this camping just a dream!!!!

I hate this part right here~~ hate that i love mylife right now~`

sound weird ????
hell yeah!!
let me state here
I HATE THAT I LOVE MYLIFE RIGHT NOW
shouldn't say like that
like i'm not appreciate mylife
don't be confuse
i hate mylife now cuz
i'm single...student...soften.. (ok -soften- not really but sometime yes!!)
i really fall in love with this..
ain't no cool then...
but now yes it is...
life without him
life being student
make me be alert with anything..
just back then
life in me just miserable
thinking about crap~~hell yeah.. wht?? love?? what kind shit of that~~
just stuck up inmy head.. make me wanna cry everytime..
I'M SO TIRED OF IT!!!
now lemme cruel of it...
cruel bout this shit L>O>V>E
I'M NOT INTO RELATIONSHIP!!!





****wonder what it would be****

FELLING JEALOUSY TAHAP GABAN!!!

WHAT???
I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND RIGHT NOW..
EVERYTHING QUIT BLURR IN FRONT OF ME RIGHT NOW..
WHY???
PLEASE DON'T ASK THAT!!
FIRST..

1. I'M BECOMING JEALOUS TO THOSE WHO HAVE RELATIONSHIP!!!!

THOSE ARE MY FRIENDS... I SHOULDN'T BECOME LIKE THAT..
IT START WHEN MY FRIEND'S BOYFRIEND CAME LAST WEEK VISIT HER. THE GUY ACTUALLY FROM SARAWAK FLEW OVER HER TO VISIT HER (ACTUALLY HE ACCOMPANY HIS MOTHER WHO HAVE MEETING IN PENINSULAR)
I WISH I HAVE JUST LIKE HER.. VERY LUCKY GURL..

2.WHY EVERYBODY RIGHT NOW ARE BETTER THAN ME??
FIRST I DIDN'T GET HIGHEST MARK IN CLASS..
(STATE HERE IN ANY2 CLASS)
WHY???
ALL MY FRIENDS (HOUSEMATE) THEY GET HIGHEST MARK THAN ME!!!!
WHY NOT ME?
WE HAVE SAME TIME-24HR
WE ALSO PARTYING...
BUT WHY I SO DUMB????
NOW I FEEL LIKE IT NO USED WHAT I'M DOING HERE..

3. EVERYBODY GOOD IN ENGLISH RIGHT NOW!!!
OK2.. FINE.. YEAH I'M USING ENGLISH RIGHT NOW!! I'M NOT DUMB!!
BUT THE WAY THE SPEAK MAKE ME BECOME MORE JEALOUSY TO THEM!!
I HATE IT...
JUST SOMETIME... SIMPLE ENGLISH I ALWAYS FORGET..
HOW CAN I IMPROVE MY ENGLISH SKILLS???

THAT ALL FOR TODAY..
AT LEAST I FEEL BETTER NOW!!
~~NOT REALLY~~

arrrgghhh... whats wrong with me!!!!

what is going on with me????
i don't know myself anymore.
feel like i'm just an alien stuck in human body...
stupid crap all things in my head just stuck in my head!!
OMG...
what the hell i'm thinking???
all... all... alllllll...(scream)
now i'm confuse...
what am i doing here?
what my mission??
what are my accomplishment?
~~~NOTHING~~~

hahhahaa( dEvIL LAuGh)

## what a busy month##

in this month only...
my life really hectic... wanna to rest but don't know when and where??
OMG... it really... just... i don't know how to tell....
assigment- bundle~
task~ a lot~
life~~ no for me right now~~
so why i'm live??
just for my destiny...
OMG
please...
i really can't hold it...
but someone keep remind me... always..
"this is life...
student life... it always hectic...
but be strong... i believe you..
you gonna archive it...
u gonna be the best
just believe yourself
stick to your planned...
always keep remind yourself...
you are the best"

thank to those who always inspire me..
always and forever
no more ~~maybe or might be~~

~~big Fan OF TwILIghT bOOks~~~

ok... who fan of Stephenie Meyer???
ME!!!
of coz !!!
hahahhaa...
it's been long time i wanna write it down in blog..
but time very jealous at me... ~~ceh~~~
hahhaha

it just...
i'm big fan of twilight..
first time watch the movie (few month ago)... it really "boom" me out...
really!!!
espeacially.. edward cullen... perghhh....
i really fall in love with him...
(let me state here.. with edward cullen not Robert Pattison ok??)
so.. the next day i went out with my dad...
we went to JJ ipoh...
on tht day... New Moon Premier...
OMG...
ticket SOLD OUT..
but.. it don't break me down...
i bought the NEW MOON NOVEL....
hahahha
hey... read the book first then you'll know where the weakness in the movie...
just in three day i'd finished it..
after one week i bought the ECLIPSE...
then the other week.. BREAKING DOWN
just in one month i spend almost rm 200 just for that book..
but still yet it not complete yet...
the twilight novel still didn't get it...
hopefully it still sell at any bookstore...
TWILIGHT I"M COMING TO YOU!!

~~today~~

pergghhhh....
hard day....
(not exactly) hahahhaha
just gimix...
but hard week...
really and seriously
quiz.... null...
alhamdulillah....
but next week.....
peeerrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
most toughest week ever!!!!!
why???
see this....
8 march- submit report for mock meeting...
10 march- submit powerpoint presentation of mock meeting..
11 march- submit assignment I.S.A
13-14 march- PTPTN resume...
no time to rest.....
oh God....
help me...
le me be strong to through this..